playingwithashes

My heart is stone but I’m happy with the weight. Each hit to it reverberates, creates a melody, my bones dance like keys. Much better to hurt others than be hurt. Much better to have broken bones than a broken heart. Look into my eyes, do they look like chocolate now? All soft and warm, for you? No, I don’t believe so. Your eyes are storms and mine are mudslides waiting to kill. Our words are still sweet, playing pretend, maybe even lost in what might have been. But time has made me stronger and time has pushed us apart- at least that’s what you said. And yet, it seems, you have time for her. I could lie and say I’m no

I don't want another power outage- When all the strings break; When everything we made: Just goes away I can't take another thunderstorm: When the lightning strikes And I can't make it right Right away I don't need your electricity To bring me to life again You're just going to leave me Alone now-

Remember when I talked to you- The Summer when you Switched? And I told you what to do When people act like bitches- -When I told you to make friends, And that people won't be nice I told you: try until the End- A mere facade won't suffice, I warned you: hold your head high Because they can smell your Fear- If you're just afraid and shy Then you will not last the year, I said: keep up with homework: With English, Math, and Reading- Being ahead will not hurt Since You are all competing I recounted my story And how 6th grade hit me hard: Tease and hurt and bully me And then break apart my Heart- So I wrote about their words And taught you

Do you know how it feels To have someone tell you That your love, dedication- Wasn't enough? Do you know how it feels To lose before you start- When the world discounts you As just another no one? Do you know how it feels To love poetry with all your heart, But can't find it in you To rhyme anymore? Do you know how it feels To have your day ruined By silence, it hurts More than I can say... Do you know how it feels To be another nobody- Another statistic, That didn't ever make it? Do you know how it feels To think your life is a poem. And that the final verse May be long overdue? Do you know what it feels like To be shattered completel

They say it's not a short term thing, Find a prison to lock me in: The walls are white, my eyes are empty. Crumble this prison, please free me Tell me that I'll be ok, That the voices will go away, Unlock me from this dungeon cell, Steer me clear from Gates of Hell The person that you see today- is not real, I'm locked away: Bound up by the fear of failing; And trapped by the feel of falling Won't you free me from this cage? It's not humane this day and age- Not pretty, not smart, not good enough: Everyone's had it, had it rough White walls, white floor, white ceiling too Last time I saw color, wasn't it you? Then I walked away, where non

i. We are infinite until we fall from the sky And with the weight of the world on our shoulders Sometimes we have to play Atlas to stay alive ii. You always jump without me she says, sitting on the edge of the cliff, looking down at him already in the deep dark water. "Then jump" he says She stands up and walks away, only to run and jump, hurtling into the water. Finally flying, finally free. iii. Sparks fly brighter in the darkness I guess if something happens I'll notice right away I'm not sure there's anything darker than the tunnel I've gotten myself into. I'm not sure that the tunnel I found has any light at the end. In fact, I'm not

Little kids are afraid of the dark. They know that there are dark horses, nightmares, ghouls and goblins; smoke and mirrors that hide in the dark. And they are afraid because they know the darkness is out to get them. The darkness wants to live without the tiniest bit of light pervading its malevolence. But big kids aren't afraid of the dark anymore. They know that there are ghosts an gremlins, monsters under the bed; cloak and daggers that lurk in the dark. But they aren't afraid anymore. They aren't afraid because they know. The darkness already got to them. They know that their light was stolen, that their light has gone out. Big

It’s like you’re speaking Another language today Come again, I can’t hear you I still understood you Just yesterday What changed, I wonder I need a translator Maybe a dictionary Did you take a class? What’s this language here? Confusionese? I’m sorry, I need a moment “Goodbye” “I don’t love you” What does it mean? Never spoken before I don’t like this new language I don’t understand Don’t go Was it her? Did she teach you? I know you've been seeing her Did you forget me? Watch your tongue boy Watch your language It’ll get you in trouble You won’t

How easy is it to go on autopilot? Easy enough I think Just sail into the air And smile like you don't have a care In this world How easy is it to drift away? Easy enough I think Just let go and soon enough you Will float into the blue Forever How easy is it to say goodbye? Easy enough I think Hard enough to think How hard is it to say hello? Forever Is floating in the blue After you decide to let go How hard is it to stay here After you let go? In this world Once you go on autopilot, Smiles don't hold much weight After you decide to sail off How hard is it to keep caring? How hard is it to say goodbye? Hard enough I think Easy enough